Lost Ownership and Rights of my Heart...

Everything in life is about what you learn,
and the way you apply it... it may be in
a daily basis, or in long term experiences..

We dont remember when we learned how to
talk, yet we do it. When we learned how to walk
but we do it, when we learned how to distinguish
good from bad... but we try to do it.

Everything in life is about how you apply this
knowledge, is about choices we make based
on past experiences... its all about ourselves
and our minds.. it may sound selfish but thats the truth...

Sometimes we cant even remember in what point we
truly got to master a certain skill or an ability that
we use..

However as a personal note, i have noticed
in little moments we appreciate what we have learned...
and still we are learning new things..

... like my newly discovered ability of loving someone...

You may ask, how could you say that.. if love is a feeling..
well its fairly simple.. we have know love since we were
born. But we dont even consider it an ability since
we just know how to do it by heart...

A nice example of this, is the pure action of kissing someone..
..you may have kissed a lot of persons in life.. or a few..
but if there is no love in them.. they will all feel the same
regardless of how "good" of a kisser the other person is..

But if understand what love is, you may have experienced it
in a kiss... is the act of risking it all.. just to feel that person close..
is the thought of needing that person near you, just to feel whole..
is the lack of air you feel, the heavy feeling in your chest, that
with warm covers your body in a soothing frenzy...

Its feeling addicted to the touch of that person.. is the calming
sound of 2 hearts synchronizing themselfs in repeating one phrase..
"i love you"

Its not being able to sleep cuz you got this inspiration on something
to write, about life, about self awareness, about love, about passion...
its the turning of a cold heart, into a lunatic understanded by few..
called a romantic...

Its the fact that you cant take that person out of your head...
.. and yet for a simple reason you cant.. and its because.. you
are not even trying..

Im not ashamed to say, to admit, that im in love.. i have fallen
so deep in this blessing/curse.. that i would risk my own sanity,
knowledge, well-being.. just to see a smile pop in that face...

You, who are reading right now.. i dont care what you think about
love, or of this that i have written.. but remember..

"If you have experience at least hate in this life, and you dont know
what love is... guess again.. you are just holding the truth by the
opposite side.. turn it around and tell me what it feels..."